Mostly this is just an outburst of sheer misery. However any suggestions anybody has are welcome.
OK, I hurt. This year's garden is still unplanted. I can only do handwork a few inches at a time. I mostly am able to very carefully sit in one spot and try not to move. It is that stupid back thing. When I have had it before generally there is nothing for it but to carry on and wait for it to go away. But this time it is not going away. I tried going to the clinic for it once before, they basicly accused me of attempting medicaid fraud. The PA couldn't figure it out so she decided I must be trying to scam an oxycontin 'script, and she would not hear otherwise. I am not particularly inclined to go back. Today is better than yesterday, but I've been here before and have no idea if that will continue. It feels like all the muscles in a four or five inch space an inch or two below my left shoulderblade are just vibrateing madly, but if you put a hand on the spot you can't feel anything. It has gone on long enough that it feels very sore, like badly torn muscles. And still the vibrating feeling continues. So I am taking asprin, I am taking fish oil in case it is some sort of neuralgia, I am wishing hard for a stiff drink just for the muscle relaxation to see if that helps, of course kiri thinks it might be a kidney infection because she is ever prone to think of organ dysfunction first. I don't know what it is, but I want it to stop.
I am thinking I might just be in a perfect mood to ring the clinic and try to bully them into setting me up with a real doctor.
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