I spent all week working on my mom's obituary. For some reason it was really, really hard to do. And got various versions sent to various newspapers.
The mortuary called today and left a message that the obits for Albuquerque and Waco would cost about $400 combined. Ouch. I already said I would handle the costs, but I didn't expect it to be so much. My sisters didn't really care if any obituary ran. I wrote a memorium type obituary with a photo. This means a lot to me. I can't say why, but it does. Why does this all have to be so hard?
I will never initiate another conversation with my sisters. I won't tell you what happened the last time I called to check on a date for the obituary, but it was rude and cold and left me crying. They both have my phone number and I would be really happy if they called me. But that won't happen. It's pretty much all over. My parents are both gone now and my sisters are too.
I promise this is the last time I will talk about Mom's death or the surrounding issues. Tomorrow my little household is going to have a service to say goodbye. I think it will help. I just wish it was a real funeral and I was surrounded by my cousins and old family friends and could say goodbye properly. I'm a silly, blubbery old woman and I have made way too much of a fuss already. Thank you for your patience and understanding. I do love all of you.
Hugs, Sunny