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Have I lost it?

I feel so lost lately. Yes my health issues have been affecting me working at all but I just feel lost. I can't make anything that looks worth a darn and my interest is severely lacking.

I know I haven't lost it for good because I'm fascinated with glass. The chemistry, the feel, the different looks, everything about it holds my attention usually. I just made three little beads and that was it. All that time warming up the kiln, getting the oxycons working, etc. and three beads.

I think I need a small trip to Mexico or something like that. It's only about a three hour drive to the border and bus tickets are cheap across the border. I wonder if DH would miss me for a few days if I took a little rest? Or better yet, maybe Trinkett and I need to go camp out on the beach for a few days. Once again about a 2 1/2 hour trip. If I went to Corpus I don't even have to sleep on the beach.

Do trips make you particularly inspired? I know the ocean always clears any funk I have built up. Mexico always makes me happy too because of the culture and art. My Spanish is lousy but I always seem to make it okay. My home away from home, San Miguel de Allende is only a 12 hour bus trip from the border.

If you guys don't hear from me for a few days you'll know where I am. I doubt I wouldn't let you guys know ahead of time but you never know what I'll wake up and do. :-)

Oh, and if I could manage to make it to Alaska to visit the girls I would be in heaven. I dreamed of Alaska last night and of my daughters. I miss them so much they invade my dreams almost every night.

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starlia
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HUGS!!!

No, you haven't lost anything. You're just coping with stuff, a lot of stuff all at once.

The glass is always there when you're ready. It's a problem when you work from home because there is no separation of you and work, so you can't have any structured time away from it unless you make yourself do it.

Me too, Starlia. I miss my girls so much that I never stop thinking about them.

Give yourself some free time and don't be so hard on yourself. We're our own worst critics and enemies, but you have a lot of people here who care very much about you.

Take a break and you'll be even better when you come back.

-Su

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Su/Cutworks

Maybe a get-a-way is just what you need!

How old are your daughters? Do you get to see them often? I realize Alaska's a long way from Texas.

Reply to
Beadbimbo

Burnout, sweetie. You'd been putting out some killer stuff, and now your muse needs time to recharge. Have you tried working in a different medium lately? I mean other than "that other project" heeheehee. Or maybe this is a good time to catch up on some reading? Or perhaps do some winter prep in the flower beds? Maybe paint a room in your house?

A trip sounds heavenly, and I'd join you if I could. I've never been to Mexico, and from what my mother tells me, there are many good reasons to go.

I'm so sorry you're missing the girls so much. Why not start a journal letter or two...where you write a little bit each day, or a couple times a day, and mail it off after a week or two? That way, you could include them in on your daily activites. Perhaps asking them to do the same would be a good idea, too. I know they miss you too. If you were my mom, I'd be nuts without you around.

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~Candace~

makes me happy too because of the culture and art. <

I totally agree, Starlia!! Hope you get away and feel reinspired when you return!

Carol in SLC Some of my stuff:

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Carol in SLC

Everyone needs some down time especially muses! Now don't be confusing this with sick time. Take time, relax your soul for a bit. We'll be here when you get back waiting to hear where you went and what you did, Starlia.

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Margie

Now I have a dang job interview tomorrow. Money has been super tight so I need to get my butt in gear and get going to help make the mortgage etc.

I don't get to see the girls all that often. Maybe once a year if I'm lucky. Ex-h is a real asshole and the girls are busy. Heather is 17 and now in college and Meghan is turning 15 in November.

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starlia

Thank you for that Candace.

Mexico is a lot of fun once you get used to seeing military men with weapons all over the place. It's very different. It's so cheap to stay in a really nice place and eating is even less expensive. I think I've rented nice rooms for $8 a night and had meals under $2.50 for the day. That does not include my Coca-cola habit there. They use real sugar in their drinks. Yummy. Even those are a buck for a huge one.

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starlia

that is SO often the case when the body is busy---whether healing, pregnant, whatever. You are BUSY right now, m'dear---its ok not to have the energy and interests you used to---they'll be back. And you may feel lost, but you are right where you are. You are connected with all that you love, even without sight or touch. hugs to ya,

Sarajane

Sarajane's Polymer Clay Gallery

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