:-( Not being able to keep confidences would be a kick in the solar plexus for me, too. I hope you've nipped your lack of filters in the bud by knowing that they aren't up when under the influence of this stuff...
Good luck both getting off, and finding another sleep-induction technique... Life without sleep can -also- send you off the deep end, so you're in a damned if you do, damned if you don't double bind if you can't get some sleep in a less cuckoo-making way.
Deirdre
On Sun, 29 Jun 2003 13:42:43 -0400, Deirdre S. wrote
>(in message ):
>
>> No mockery here. It would be very disconcerting to discover that
>> something like a doppelganger had been occupying your body and saying
>> things and doing things you wouldn't have said or done yourself. >
>The thing that upsets me the most is that I've been always been comforted by
>the fact that even if my body sucks, my mind is okay. To suddenly find out
>that my mind isn't okay is like a punch in the stomach. I'm trying to take
>it with good humor, but the things I found out I've said is very upsetting --
>stuff I'd kept secret for decades. It's like my filters are gone. >
>Even worse, I'm giving away other people's secrets; like stuff my siblings
>did as teens and the like. Normally, once you've told me to keep something
>quiet, I never mention it again. (even back to you) Now a whole slew of
>things have come spilling out, and it's highly upsetting.
>
>> I think the cross-check strategy for the kids confirming things you
>> seem to be signing off on with someone else is a good one for the
>> short term, but getting off those meds sounds necessary for the long
>> term. I hope you can figure out something equally effective to let you
>> sleep OK, without carving big chunks out of your consciousness. >
>Exactly. I'm going off the drug, even if it means I never sleep again.
>(Well, not really, you know what I mean) I just want to check with the
>Pharma doctor to see if I have to taper off or not. I've abruptly stopped
>things before and have been sorry I did so. (Word of advice: Never, ever
>stop steroids abruptly. It can kill you.)
>
>Kathy N-V