Brought to tears

No Dave, it doesn't make you weak or lame or dumb just a wonderful HUMAN.

I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you yet but from what I've read you are a genuinely a nice guy.

Be safe, Kate

Its so understandable Dave!!!

I was just cleaning my scrap area the other day and I came across the recipes from the Holiday dessert swap and Jessie's Death By Chocolate recipe was in there and I got choked up just looking at it..

As ya'll saw what absolutely awesome gift April made me, well past few days i have been adding special pictures to it to finish it out. I can not say how much I treasure that book now.

But even more so along with it and I am having a REALLY REALLY HARD = time trying to even think about it, is the comp book, the FIRST that Jessie ever made and gave to me for my journeys and RCS meets. I have pix of all the people I have met and notes or memories about the meets, and have been wanting to get them all in that book to carry along with me = as well and share with all that I see and or meet.=20

After seeing MC's creation for her, well I am really torn now over the memories I have of that really special weekend Jessie and I spent together in Atlanta. Because of MC's awesome ability and creativity in doing her book, I am so lost on now what to do. All I can think of is the tears in my eyes of OUR special time and meet together and the REALLY REALLY SPECIAL people that are in this group.

I know this probably sounds weak or lame or even dumb, but I am rather well WEAK and does this make sense? I have everything laid out to even start TRYING to get it together but now, no I will have to think about bringing it all to MC's and Kenda's and Deb's to do and April too!! I just at this time do not think that I could concentrate on = accomplishing anything because of the tears and the memories.

Thanks for letting me ramble but just have to release some of the emotions of confusion and joy that I have. =20

OKC Dave

No Dave, it doesn't make you weak or lame or dumb....just human. It's ok to share your emotions. That's what we're partly here for! Just take your time on the comp book.

I hear you hon... I never got to meet her in person tho and so wish I had... although all the emails we exchanged... she felt like a sister. I've been raking my brain figuring out what I want to do... and I've come up with an idea... its going to take a while but will be worth it...

Dave, it is about heart, not ability and you've got plenty of that. I let my heart speak for me in that book and if you do that with yours it will be the most beautiful book! Your love of people and your kindness will shine right through. Besides which I've seen how creative your albums are and you've no reason not to pay tribute to Jessie by filling in that compbook she gave you!

Your heart, your kindness, your generosity, they show up in everything you do and everything you write, Dave. I just know that if you sit down and start working on the compbook, you'll do a job that no one can possibly do better than you can and you will better for having done it. Besides, we'll all be cheering you on every step of the way.

Big hugs, M-C

Dave, Lori and I have one of the comp books Jessie made for us,too. Ihave always treasured it and am using it as a daily journal. I have not been able to put anything in there about Jessie yet and so I know how you feel. It really hurts to know that that wonderful talent is just resting there. I believe that all of us who have met Jessie in person and /or talked with her by phone feel the hurt that her family is experiencing. I am saying a little extra prayer for the wonderful people on this group that is reaching out to Patty and Jessie's family. M-C I am sure you are a light for Patty to guide by. Thank you for your work on our behalf ! Love and Hugs to all of you!!!

Hugs, Sabrina in Kentucky

a good friend is a life long treasure

Oh my comp book!!! I have a handful of beautiful ones that have been made for me by wonderful ladies here, and I need to get them back up on the wall... and that bag out of a placemat! *wanders off to find that box*

Just wait a little while and the good memories will make it easier to do. Jessie would want you to keep working on it and you can show her what you've added when you get to see her.

Teresa in MD

{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}} Oh Dave, I remember how much fun you and Jessie had that weekend! Gather up what you have laid out. Then bring it here and we will help you through this. Just today M-C told someone I had broad shoulders. Now I know they are good to lean on and have a good cry. We love you Dave and I want you to know that we don't think its weak, lame or anything else you threw out there. It's human to feel the way you do. Now start packing!

Sabrina, it's the least I could do. I just want to hug PAtti and tell her it will all be OK again. Not the same, never the same, but OK! Sometimes it's so hard being far away and wanting to reach out!

M-C

Dave you are not weak, lame or dumb. You are a wonderful, caring person. Take some time and just remember your weekend with Jessie. The pages and journaling you need to do will come to you, maybe not all at once, but it will come. Take care. {{{{{{{{{{{{Extra Big Hugs}}}}}}}}}