Hi everyone,
I just need to talk.... I'm really feeling down lately and I can't pull myself out of this rutt!! I am on the verge of resigning from my job, it's driving me nuts and I'm depressed all the time and snapping at Paul. It's not fair on him that I'm so miserable. I can't explain it though. He has told me to resign, and as much as I would LOVE to do that, I know that it would be a struggle financially if I did. I am thinking about looking into becoming a consultant for CM or something, I want a "meaningful job", something where I am making a difference or at least something I enjoy. I absolutely hate my job, working in a call centre getting yelled at my irate customers day in day out.... ever since I've left school I've worked in adminstration and customer service positions, and I now have over 12 yrs experience doing something I hate!!
I'm so sorry for this, I'm just letting off steam and I guess it's easy to do here. I want so much to feel content and happy, any suggestions for raising my spirits? I gave up smoking in June, and was so close to having one yesterday - but I snapped myself out of that real quick... I just don't want to lose it!!
I actually accomplished a couple of pages last night.. that was fun, I love scrapping, it totally relaxes me because I can see that I do have talent and I can create some really beautiful things. But then I tried to upload the pages so I could share them with you all and the upload tool was not working, so I will try again later.
Paul told me to stay home today, didn't want me going to work feeling as I do... I took his advice, cos I really feel bad today. I feel like I'm ready for the looney bin!!
Thanks for letting me vent, sorry for being so dreary!!
Skye.