Re: No Pain!

On Fri, 14 May 2004 12:36:45 -0400, Diana Curtis wrote (in message ):

Oh yes. Heartbroken. I live to clean.

Kathy N-V

(my fingers are going to drop off for writing such lies.)

Haw haw HAW ~~ Sooz

------- "Those in the cheaper seats clap. The rest of you rattle your jewelry." John Lennon (1940 - 1980) Royal Varieties Performance ~ Dr. Sooz's Bead Links

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE! Yay! Really pleased for you!

Oh dear. ;)

Then there's me, who really enjoys cleaning, just not the mess monsters that come along after I'm done....sigh.

I worry about women like you. ;-)

Hey, dirty little secret here. I love to iron. Ironing, to me, is theraputic no brain work. Especially using lavander or rosemary mint water on the clothes. In fact, I have a whole pile of therapy waiting in the other room. Now cleaning, OTOH........................ Jan

Jalynne? Me too, darlin. I'm going over to Carol's other house tonight in search of something to clean, LOL. (this place is spotless).

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

When I used to indulge in recreational meds, long long ago, I used to iron my little heart out. I'd go to my friend's house and iron everything that wasn't nailed down. She loved it. ~~ Sooz

------- "Those in the cheaper seats clap. The rest of you rattle your jewelry." John Lennon (1940 - 1980) Royal Varieties Performance ~ Dr. Sooz's Bead Links

On Fri, 14 May 2004 19:43:24 -0400, Jan G wrote (in message ):

A combination of things - meds, PT, a little weight loss and lots of powerful vibes from the people here on RCB.

Amazingly, I wrote this last week, when I think I hit my lowest point:

----------------------- The reality of my life is that I often have to crawl to get upstairs, and pay for even the slightest exertion with days of pain. Or, I can take the painkillers and be zoned out, those are my choices. I've gotten a lot tougher - pain that would have made me cry years ago barely registers in my consciousness these days. I spent a day with [a friend] a couple of weeks ago

- and spent five days in bed afterward, because I couldn't even walk to the other end of the house without help.

It infuriates me to have people who have no idea what it's like to live in my skin tell me that I need to lose weight. Think I don't know that? Think I don't cringe when I see myself in the mirror and compare it to the person I used to be? What magic wand can I wave to make it possible for me to walk up the thirteen steps to my house? Forget running a marathon - I'd like to be to sit through one of DD's school presentations. Once I gain that much progress, I'll worry about losing weight, okay?

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That was in response to someone telling me that I "need to get active and take off those pounds. Just stop eating so damn much."

She didn't get it. I've been on heavy duty steroids for more than 20 years, and am 100 lbs. heavier than my pre-steroid weight. I used to eat everything in sight back then, and never gained an ounce. Now, I eat one meal a day, because the pain makes me nauseated most of the time. If I stop the steroids, I die - period.

Not too many choices there - I'll walk through burning coals to be there while my daughter grows up. I suspect that DD thinks that having a fat mother is way better than having a dead one. Being there for my family is my sole motivation.

I'm a little sore tonight - I had to test my new meds by driving a couple of miles, because Bob is out of town. But I've been able to skip the Vicodin for three days, and that's wonderful. Even if it doesn't last, this respite has been wonderful. It's like a beautiful sunny day after a long, long winter.

Kathy N-V

Kathy, We sound the same. I'm not on the heavy duty stuff yet, but it feels as if it's coming. The weight sucks too. I eat veggies and good stuff, but I'm still 100 lbs overweight. I was walking with my husband and fell against a display, he asked what was wrong with me. I just looked at him and said what? This is what is happening. He said I look drunk. LOL I wish. I would love to tie one on right now. Then maybe I could walk and laugh more. Right after that my hip went oops and I almost fell again. He didn't know it had gotten that bad cause I hide it from him.

It's so frustrating. The exhaustion is the worse. I was able to stay upright and bead last nite for a few hours, even made sense of a couple of new stitches. Today I can barely move. I feel I have the weight of another person on my body. I've taken several naps and haven't even taken any meds for the pain. lol

I'm looking forward to my sunny day soon.

Hugs,

Your lowest day really hit a nerve with me Kathy. I just found out I have gained 25 pounds over the last few months and I was already heavy. Some folks just don't get that we would really rather being doing normal stuff. I can do some things when I feel good and I'm thankful for that. Then there are those days when I can't even move.

I was so low today after finding out I gained that much weight. I've never weighed this much, not even when I was pregnant. So I'm going to be grateful that I can do things that not everyone can. I'm going to be happy that I'm alive and I can work at the torch.

Well ya know - iffen y'all really *need* to do it, I'll gladly sacrifice my house for your, um "addiction"

LOL. Kathy -- I'll keep that in mind.

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

Debbie, avoiding meds for the pain isn't therapeutic. Trust me, I know.

~ Enduring pain as a virtue is a myth. It's very bad for your body, and your health. It creates more stress, which in turn creates worse health.

~ If you put up with pain, feeling it instead of masking it, you can end up with fibromyalgia or other neurological problems. It's pointless to suffer, unless you want to get sicker. It's better for you, long term and short term, to be a bit woozy than in pain.

~ If you don't take the meds at the first onset of the pain, it doesn't work very well. You should take them at the first hint.

Being "tough" about one's pain is not wise. It's a myth perpetuated for years and years, based on this country's Puritan founders' views. And those people were crazy! Do you really want to do that? Be crazy?

Plus, people in pain are very hard on the ones who love them. If you won't do it for yourself, do it for those around you.

~~snipped~~

~~ Sooz

------- "Those in the cheaper seats clap. The rest of you rattle your jewelry." John Lennon (1940 - 1980) Royal Varieties Performance ~ Dr. Sooz's Bead Links

Debbie. Don't do this. You need to share, or you become isolated from everyone around you. Seriously. It's like being in the closet -- it's a toxin, and it's terrible, terrible stress.

Don't tell everyone -- but choose a few people you can confide in. Or you will get sicker, and more injured. This is serious. ~~ Sooz

------- "Those in the cheaper seats clap. The rest of you rattle your jewelry." John Lennon (1940 - 1980) Royal Varieties Performance ~ Dr. Sooz's Bead Links

Totally. When I was a single mom, about the ONLY benefit to it was that since we were always busy going to work or preschool or the babysitter, or ferrying them to and from their dad's house, we were never home to make a mess. I cleaned house once a week and it stayed clean until the following weekend.

-Kalera

"Sooz is high... time to do laundry!"

Ah, younger days!

-Kalera

What she said. Listen! Don't make us come over there!