On my Flickr.com site I've posted a pic of my finished wallhanging for the Remember Me Challenge.
Anyway, this is a small and quiet happy dance. Trying to make this quilt, which is t o represent what I want people to remember about me (very subjective and very abstract), I ended up ripping all the quilting out twice and starting over. It was horrible and I wanted to throw it away. I started wanting to make the qulting look like the wind blowing my tree. But I couldn't make it right. Then I just tried to do basic stippling which I have done many times, but not in several months. I couldn't do it. I tried and tried and then cried. It's painfully obvious that in the past few months I have lost some control function in my hands. I know I was hurting and numb a lot, but I never dreamed that would translate to not being able to move my quilt and do basic quilting.
I am trying hard to stay in denial for a bit longer. I made a sandwich just to practice and the results were the same. I don't know whether it's carpal tunnel or my autoimmune disease which has attacked my hands. I do know that this is very hard to take. I have not been able to do hand work in a long time because I can't feel the needle in my fingers reliably. This is different. I'm only 50. I have a lot of life ahead.
So I am looking for therapy and exercises that will "bring back" my hand function.In the meantime my quilting will be grids, some very loose echo quilting and similar types. Even the grid is questionable
-- I jerk a lot and end up with hiccups.
Anyway, tell me what you think about this tiny little FINISHED project. :)
Sunny