I have totally had it with the guilt that I have had throwed back in my face and being totally unable in the past couple of weeks of being able to handle what I THOUGHT WAS a dead horse, and the total dumbfoundness of how people can let 'cyberworld' affect them. Also the fact that I can not in the life of me understand why people live two facets of life, to save or give themselves face.
The thread that Mindi and Maureen posted, and the request of others in here I am sure, that Ronni be removed, well so be it with me too. It seems that as individualistic and outspoken as SHE WAS, I was still the bottom of the barrel, over one, stupid admitted "male" typical screwup of putting the cart before the horse.
MC, please remove my profile from the group too. I will leave I am sure to the happiness of several in here, namely Shelley, Maureen, Tracy Martin, Jenn P, Donna, Dawn and few others I suspect too.
This group started to go to crap soon after I joined, BECAUSE I AM A MAN and started to speak up and out on touchy subjects in here, namely RAKS, contact lists and the CHANCE to meet others on a whim. For those naysayers that worry about every little thing in life from those few horror stories blown all over by the media, well several I had had the GREAT opportunity to meet, met their mates ON LINE. Again it is thans to today's society and the cyberworld where pre-judgements are made.
For reasons that I fail to understand to this day is why people are so uptight of not being happy or even joyful for those who so freely give of themselves or whatever, without thought of receipt back. Sharing the joy of those that are the lucky recipients, the subject of RAKs. It was seemiingly a very touchy subject with Shelley, as we all know for the discussions that WE ALL in here have had, just like flakers in swaps.
Then there was the Iist and ideas of some wanting to make it more useful, offering to share some of the weight, all it brought was disdain and obvious selfish feelings of "my idea" or "MINE", not to mention the possibility of "ME" being a man, or anyone else as far as that goes, wanting to stop and meet you at the drop of a hat bringing up all sorts of security issues. Then there was the finger pointing at someone and then ME for taking defense of them for wanting to do something for charity and many thought it was for personal gain. Shame on how people always take heel in the evil side of things.
I truly and sincerely will miss those that I have had the ultimate pleasure of meeting in person, those who we have spoken to each other on the phone and here on line. AND those that TRULY appreciated and were surprised with the gifts I could provide. I hope to be able to stay in touch, but not in this group. I truly will miss it, and do have other things to do besides get "hooked" on ya'll yakking away in here, laughing and crying on each others shoulders, getting stress relief, AND drooling over everyone's "treasures" and arts.
Finally to satisfy those that do not believe how people can seem one way but then are another, I am attaching the personal email that Shelley sent me. AND YOU WONDER WHY I am all screwed up, reacting irrationally, well believe what you want. I am grieving over the whole mess and maybe, if the truth be known, some of you might feel emotion of guilt too, for believig ALWAYS the negative and reacting to or with it. So enjoy THE GROUP and goodbye.
""From: snipped-for-privacy@trilogentech.com(Shelley) Date: Wed, Oct 13, 2004,
8:49pm (CDT+1) To: snipped-for-privacy@webtv.net Subject: Re: At Shelley's Request- New RCS Website
You are the reason i have left the group! I have never gotten over your post in the summer. No need to reply, I have left the group. =BAo=BA Shelley =BAo=BA Ontario, Canada From the... Great White North, eh! ""
OKC Dave