I've been absent for awile and I'm not sure it won't happen again. I've been sick. I have what's called nonischemic dilated cardio myopathy meaning I have an enlarged heart and they don't know why. Everybody pumps blood out of your heart and lungs at a certain rate called an ejection fraction. The average person's is 60 and mine is 29. I'm on 5 different medications of which 2 are water pills so I spend alot of time in the bathroom. I'm on a blood thinner a beta blocker and a ?-I'm having a brain fart right now and forget! I've had many tests and have appointments made for 4 more in April. The main thing they are trying to figure out right now is if I need a pace maker defibulator or not-I would like to avoid this if possible but we'll see! Emilee is such a smart but sensative little thing, she watches me like a hawk and any little thing that happen's out of the ordinary she automatically thinks the worst! I try to be positive but it's hard because I get scared too! I mean at 44 you don't expect to have heart problems! Right now the meds are working and I feel okay but I'm nervous about the defibulator thing I'm used to struggles with my leg and balance from my car accident but this is a new battle and I really want to win this one! Barb:o)
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16 years ago