Went to see the Doctor again yesterday. I again expressed my concern over the pain that I'm having as well as the inability to squat and kneel/crawl and the other limitations I'm having. He doesn't understand why I'm having these problems. what blows my mind I haven't had an x-ray/MRI/or CT since Dec. 2006. He did tell me something that made allot of sense. I had a direct blow to the cartilage and with that type of injury the further away you get from the orginal injury the more damage you have. He is of the opinion that I am rapidly loosing cartilage and the only non-drug options for pain relief is a total knee replacement (but since I'm 37 he said he wouldn't do it) or a partial replacement and he's not sure about doing that since they only last 10-15 years and my age was again mentioned.
Dr. started me on a different anti-inflammitory (the 5th anti-inflammitory this year) and a round of steriods in hopes that the swelling and the pain will be relieved. In the mean time he started the paper work for me to be scheduled for a CFE (a Career Functionality Exam). Once I've had that exam he will send me down the hall to another Ortho Dr. so I can have a second opinion. Perhaps he will have a different opinion.
I'm still working with the State of AR Worker's Comp. Commission in trying to find a different dr. We've run into some problem in that we can't find a dr. that will see me since I've already seen a dr. and have had not 1 but 2 surgeries.
I am now facing the reality that I will not be returning to work, unless by some miricle I have a great reation to the steriods or see a different dr. At any rate I am trying to cope with that. I am lucky that I have been able to work at a job that I wanted and loved for 13 years, not everyone can do that. If I don't go back I will be retired on disability, even though that won't come near my current income at least there will still be money comeing in. I am just very sad, angry and very frustrated, I started crying in the dr.'s office and haven't stopped a whole lot. At this point I just want the pain to be gone, or at least greatly reduced. I slept most of the day, I've hurt so bad.
The worst part of this???? I won't have as much to spend on scrappin! Or trips....