I just popped in to read ALL the responses to my post ... thank you all SO much, you made my day. :-)
I am feeling a bit better some days, others I'm pretty tired and just want to sleep and watch tv. I'm not really having any pain inside to speak of, it's mostly the incision that's bugging me. It smarts, hurts, pulls ... and just gives me the heebie jeebies. LOL ...
It's healing slowly, but I still have to clean it twice a day ... and sit very slowly and get up very slowly, I look like I'm pregnant .. holding my belly and all.. LOL ... no more though .. not me.
I did go thru one spell where I felt sad that I could or would never have a child with Jim, even though we're separated, ... I love him still. That didn't last too long ... LOL
My cat is driving me crazy to play catch with her ... with the wool toys I crocheted... guess she really likes them, but mommy can't bend down to pick it up ... unless I'm sitting, then I use a fork to stab it and pick it up. LOL ..
Thank you all again! It was so nice to come in and see so many thoughtful and caring posts. It's nice to know we can touch each other, if only thru the monitor. :-)
I have been drawing (my other love) .... and making myself laugh with some of these funky funny illustrations. Perhaps I'll put them online and let ya'll see them sometime.
Jim did come over last night and bring dinner ... ate with me ... then stayed the night. Course, he mostly watched tv ... got mad if I wanted to talk in commercials ( he LOVES commercials), and was all around kinda touchy ... but he was here. He stayed the night .... and I made coffee this morning for the first time ... LOVE the smell of it .. but hate the taste.. LOL .. I made it for him.
We talked some and then he vaccuumed for me .... which really helped .. he took out garbage and fed the cats ... so that was nice... course had to ask him .. but still .. it was a big help. He also left $3.00 worth of quarters for the laundry during the week, and is now at the store getting me a few things. He's getting off work at noon to take me to my first check up tomorrow ... so I do appreciate these things he's doing.
As for emotion or affection ... I can forget it though ... but he is there for me for the other things. All though I have to go thru him getting mad when I ask .... and that's not fun ... he does eventually do it.
And guess what ?????? I don't like chocolate anymore!!!!! Can you believe that???? It must be hormones ... gosh! I'm craving lemon pie ... but when I eat chocolate I feel sick ... geesh!
Since I left one ovary, I don't feel any big changes yet .... and I'm going to try to go thru it naturally as I can if I can .. and if I need anything, my doctor uses a pharmacist that works with BIO-IDENTICAL hormones ... but I'll wait and see if I even need them. I just CAN'T believe that I'll never have another period! Seems like it's not real yet .. hasn't sunk in.
Well .. I've talked your ear off ... and I'm tired ... so back to tv.
Huggles!!! Dee