I have just had the most wonderful early dinner, conversation and beautiful surprise I could ask for. Linda from Patchogue and I met up this afternoon for a visit and early dinner. After we sat down she handed me this bag with a quilt in that she wanted me to look at. Oh what a beautiful quilt it was too. Then she told me that it was my very own HUG quilt. What a wonderful surprise. I can never thank you all enough for your kindness, caring, thoughtfulness and generosity in doing this for me. I can wrap myself in the love of my friends and feel the love of my brother with this HUG quilt. It is absolutely beautiful. Even though it has been almost 8 months since Butch died, right now I am just numb. There are days that I want to cry and the tears won't come. I just want to feel again. So this HUG couldn't have come at a better time. After I showed it to DH, I wrapped myself in it and it hit me just how lucky I am to have such wonderful friends and then the tears came.
The timing was so great in more ways than one. The last few days I have been feeling especially blue because yesterday was my birthday. Ordinarily birthdays are pretty much just another day but this was my 50th and that is huge for me. I guess losing my brother just made me realize that I'm really not immortal and in a way I guess I had become complacent about it since I have already outlived everyone's expectations by many years. In June it will be 38 years since I had open-heart surgery that saved my life and I have not had to have any repairs or anything since. That is huge. But knowing that I'll not be able to share the big milestones (like turning 50) with him anymore has really bothered me so this HUG quilt came just at the right time.
Thank you all so much. Words cannot begin to describe how much this means to me. I love you all.
Love and hugs, Mika