So how is life with you all?

Oct 16, 2007 12 Replies

I kinda dropped off the planet for a while, sorry folks but as you all know real life has a nasty habit of bowling not just curved balls, but honking great ones at that... but armed with a brand new laptop and a newsgroup reader that works I AM BACK!



I've been living on my own now for 4 months, the flat is now ALL MINE and will be a millstone around my neck for the next 17 years with a brand new mortgage/re-mortgage so I could buy Paul out of his share. Wages coming in just about cover the bills, and this month the money is starting to seriously pinch. I had to go food shopping tonite, and usually I go to Waitrose... but no tonite I headed for Tesco's 'cos they are much cheaper... at this rate I'll be able to fit into all my old clothes again because I'll be eating so little that the weight will drop off (heck I can always hope!)



Paul moved back in with his brother about 20 miles away, and I see him on a regular basis, mainly because his brother has let the family home slide... no hot water, large hole in roof, no this, no that... so every



4-5 days or so he was coming bak home to use the washing machine and shower. Last week he finally got a plumber in and got a brand new washer-dryer plumbed in, but the shower and immersion is proving more tricky. However thats his problem, not mine. Some of my friends have said I am mad to let him keep coming round, but even tho he was the one that broke my heart by walking out on me after almost 17 years of marriage I haven't got the courage to tell him "no". BUT I have got my keys back off him, so he cannot come round when he feels like it, and especially not when I am not home, which is something at least.

He still has some stuff here, mainly stuff which is jointly owned and we haven't sorted out what to do with it all yet... but on the whole I've managed to keep virtually everything big here - including the car which at one stage was doubtful...



Me? well I'm lurching from one crisis to another, my kitchen ceiling started leaking but the roofers came today and patched it - however they reckon that the roof will only last this coming winter and will probably need completely replacing... my fire escape steps from my flat down into my garden need completely replacing and the two together run into several thousand pounds... this does get split between me and the owner of downstairs but I may still have to personally try and find around 2-3 thousand pounds... so if anyone has won the lottery recently please consider this a charity case!



I haven't quite lost my sense of humour but at times its very hard... I'm getting very lonely in the evenings especially now the nights are drawing in. I'm making some serious errors in judgement, one last week may have cost me dearly but I won't know for another few days exactly what the damage is... more on that later.



Quilting? haven't been able to face doing anything recently, but as its starting to get colder in the evenings I think I want to dig out the sampler quilt I was doing in Spain last year with Nikki Tinkler and carry on embroidering around it - at least I can curl up under it and keep warm whilst working on it! Have been doing a lot of scrapbooking though, and working hard at my craft shop part-time.



So - "hello" to everyone who has missed me, "hi there" to any brand new people who haven't yet had the pleasure and big hugs to everyone who needs them - in fact big hugs all round!


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Butterfly (done proper now ; )

Big hugs back, Suzie. You're doing so well, keep it up. And just once in a while, go to Waitrose and treat yourself to something you love (I love their bread!). Well done for managing to get the flat for yourself. You way you feel will improve, little by little. Take care, and don't forget, it is just like a bereavement, so don't feel you have to be 'all better' any time soon. . In message , Suzie B writes

Suzie, I'm so glad to see you here again and delighted to hear that you haven't lost your sense of humor. I really hope that things improve for you soon and that you are able to make your new life a happy one. {{{{Hugs}}}}

Howdy!

Chin up, Girl. You're coming along, and you're going to be fine. Wrap up in a quilt & take care of YOUrself.

R/Sandy

Hiya Suzie, I'm Elly on the north coast of Scotland, please to 'meet' you. My you've been having a rough ride with life! Hang on in there things can only get better. Hugs

Elly

"Suzie B" wrote:

{{{{{{{Suzie}}}}}}}}}}}}} Glad to hear that things are settling out for you. I may have to agree with your friends. In your place I'd likely cut ties as soon as I possibly could, but you know what's right for you. Just be vigilant and don't let him (or anyone else) weasel you out of anything. I speak from experience...;-)

(((((Suzie))))) and Welcome back! Sounds like you've been through the wringer lately, but we're glad to see you again! Take time to take care of yourself - and sending positive vibes that things will soon settle down and run smoothly.

Welcome back Suzie.. (( Suzie)).. hang in there.. !!

FiederEls.

Nice to see you back, Susie. It's tough, I know (been through it TWICE, more fool me LOL) but you may realize, a year or two down the road, how wonderful it is not to share your space, your time and your affections except on your own terms.

Quilting and comedy got me through a lot. I hope you come through as safely as I did. Sending good thoughts and hugs and strength from Tucson!

Learn to do all you can. The more repairs you know how to do, the less likely you are to be cheated if you choose to hire out a job. That's one place where unscrupulous folks really take advantage of women and the elderly. I even conquered my fear of heights in order to maintain both my mother's and my own swamp cooler (don't ask, you don't have them in England) and also to coat our roofs with water/sunproofing. The last time someone other than me did Mom's roof, they used a watered-down product that was as thin as a coat of paint, and they didn't patch any cracks or even clean the leaves and bird droppings off the roof before they coated it! Next time I was up on her roof I had a heck of a job getting it cleaned and properly coated.

Let us know periodically how things are going for you. You have a great support group here, you know!

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((( Suzie ))) - I am so glad to see you back here. I'm hope that you are able to find joy in the little things. So, wrap yourself up in a quilt and join us for some hugs, laughs, chocolate ( Yes, I've got some! ).

- dlm. in central MA

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