Do you ever have one of those days?

Don't know what's going on, but

1) don't sell your torch, and 2) (((((((((((((((((Starlia)))))))))))))))

Tina

(((((Starlia)))))

I don't think you need to sell your torch. Remember, there's always someone who just wants to stir things up (regardless of what they claim their motivations are). Have a good cry. Maybe take a long, soothing bubble bath.

Thank you Sooz and Kathy...and everyone else. I wish I could just crawl in the bubble bath, but I feel so bad today that I don't think I can make it in and out. The tub is DEEP and even on good days I have a hard time getting in and out.

Thanks for all your support. I guess I need a good cry and then go cuddle with Trinkett for a few hours.

OK then no bath - but a Trinkett snuggle sounds wonderful!

Sending you positive vibes!!

On Fri, 20 Feb 2004 0:34:51 -0500, starlia wrote (in message ):

Oh Hon, it's amazing how all those things that don't bother us mutch during the day grow and become overwhelming during those dark, small hours where there's nothing to do but think and obsess. (Nope, never been there, not me, no siree)

If your friend is a true friend, (s)he would be heartbroken at your simply throwing your incredible talent away. You have an obvious gift, and just refusing to satisfy your inner muse isn't going to make you happy, and by extension, can't help your friendship in the least. I don't know your situation, but I do know that a heartfelt talk over a cup of tea (fattening extras optional) can work wonders to repair a friendship that needs a few band-aids.

Or use the torch to help you work through your feelings. Don't think about making anything saleable right now, just use the torch and the glass to make something that represents your feelings. About yourself, your friendship, your feelings. Personally, I'd make a piece that represented all the things I don't like about myself, which ultimately turns out to be the root of all my disagreements with other people. I'd put everything I had into it: all the hurts, the words that were said, and the words that shouldn't have been said; make it representative of everything that's brought you to this point.

After it's come out of the kiln, look at it. You'll have two ways to go from there - treasure it, because it holds all the hurts and pain in a way that cannot hurt you again, or smash it into a million pieces to symbolize the power that you have over those inner demons who try to hurt us.

I hope this makes sense. If it would help, you can email me privately, and I'd be happy to provide an empathetic ear or two. You needn't worry that I'd tell anyone, because that's not what I do.

I love you, and hate to see you in such pain. If there is anything I can do to help, remember - two shoulders to cry on, no waiting.

Kathy N-V

P.S.: If this is a little jumbled it's because Bob just woke me from a sound sleep. My breathing apparatus snapped in half, and I was gasping for air. So, I get to play McGiver girl and repair it with duct tape until a new headpiece can be ordered. God forbid the insurance company let me have a spare - that might make sense. So I get to sleep with my CPAP interface jury rigged together with popsicle sticks and duct tape for a couple of weeks (if I let them buy it), or a couple of days (if I buy it myself and get reimbursed).

Starlia - don't you dare!!! You're a newbie who was absolutely crucified on WC without any thought to how you felt. I knew it was going to get to you eventually, because some people over there were really being jerks. If the people involved had some issue with you they should have contacted you via PM or email and asked you about it. I am really sorry it turned out this way, but please don't give up beadmaking. Find your voice and keep pushing your skills like you have been. Talk to only those people involved directly in the issue - your friend being one of them. Ignore the rest of the people who think they can be the police of the beadmaking world. But please don't quit - honey you have so much potential!

This is the best idea I have ever heard!!!

(((Starlia))),

I don't know what happend. I have so little computer time, that I never read WC anymore. Do what you love, and don't let someone make you feel like you have to give up your torch!

< OK... I have no idea what is going on. Here is what YOU need to do! Turn on that torch and put what you are feeling into the bead. No matter what the feeling is! If it's anger make anger... if it's depression make depression... no matter what it is... make it and then go outside and throw the damn thing as far as you can and NEVER go looking for it! It does not have to be big or kiln annealed! Just get it out of you and into something else and chuck it! If the bead turns out pretty you didn't make the right bead... keep that one! :) Do it until the feeling is gone... I believe in you and so does everyone else here! To coin a phrase: JUST DO IT!

Harry My Ebay Auctions are at

I'm sorry you feel so awful Starlia.I hope it gets better soon. Sarajane

Sarajane's Polymer Clay Gallery

Say it isn't true, Starlia! Please don't make any rash decisions while your emotions are so high. Taking a break to get some perspective is a good thing as is talking issues over with your friends especially your dear friend if possible. Why do I get the feeling that your friend would not want you to hang up your torch?

{{{Starlia}}}

Starlia, I always make it a point to avoid *those* threads. It always ends up the same way, and someone gets hurt. I hate that it was you this time.

That whole issue is something that came up ALL the time in the other medium in which I worked. Keep in mind that those who whine loudest are usually those who are the most insecure about their own talents and abilities. Those folks would benefit from spending more time at the torch and less time picking other people apart.

I know you're hurting. I hate that. If you were closer, I say come over and we'll melt stuff together.

Tink

"Tinkster" wrote

Can I have an AMEN????

Bravo Tink!

Starlia, I'm just echoing what's already been said...It happens over and over, and usually it's someone else's insecurity doing the talking. Keep trying, keep learning, have fun and do what you love (and what the glass tells you to do, when you're really lucky).

Hugs, KarenK

Wow, whatever happened sounds painful - how sad. Keep in mind though - your art may be what gets you through this. Hope you feel better soon...

Best, Deborah

What she said dammit!!!

Thank you so much Kandice. I did try talking to some of the folks privately, but they asked me not to speak to them.

I think I'll take a few days to myself off WC and see if I feel better.

Harry,

For some reason you always make me smile and laugh. Thank you for that. I just might go in there and make a bead with those sentiments. I wonder what it will look like. :-)

Tinkeroonie,

You are a doll. Thanks!

Starlia

< You are very welcome and I do hope today is much better for you. :) Be warned... if the bead you make looks like: It's wearing glasses, it's kind of aging, a little round in the middle, and has a receding hairline... SMASH IT!! It's me... you don't want that bead! lol Have a great day!

Harry

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