OT: Yoooo Hooooo!!!! Read Me!! ( Stopping In For A Visit)

Thanks, Tina. I have come to terms with some of the fear by now, LOL. It is not easy to change your whole life. However, I haven't been very happy here lately, and I am hoping this will give me whatever it is that I need to find my happiness again.

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

not easy to change your whole life. However, I haven't been very happy here

Becki -- I think you are phenomenally brave, and valiant, intrepid even. I'm sending you as much strength as I can manage in the next couple of weeks, during your huge move across country. ~~ Sooz

------- "Those in the cheaper seats clap. The rest of you rattle your jewelry." John Lennon (1940 - 1980) Royal Varieties Performance ~ Dr. Sooz's Bead Links

Have as much fun on the journey as you can. And remember, you actually DO have a safety net.

Tina

Karen -- I know this worked for you. I knew you before you went to AZ and baby, you were not happy then. And without a doubt, are now. I am very grateful to have the opportunity to make these changes in my life.

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

Thank you Sooz, because you mean the world to me. I am going to wear your bracelet the whole way. I would not be moving out there if it were not for the RCBers in CA that made the possibility of coming there so enticing. I hope you all know that. Part of it is CA itself, but a big part of it is a chance to meet all of you, something I would never have done otherwise. And, I get to spend some time with Carol, helping her move, which also means a lot to me because I know she is not 100% physically well yet and cannot imagine how she is getting through the stress of moving without a lot more help (((((((((((love you Carol)))))))))))))

I got past one of the biggest hurdles yesterday (today to me, because I haven't been to bed yet, LOL) and that is my 11-year-old godson, Marquise. He is very unhappy about me moving, and was until I gave him the cell phone I just bought and told him he could call me anytime. He also recorded a totally hysterical message on my answering machine about me moving to CA (it says he is moving there too, LOL. I could only wish that were true). Tomorrow is a rough day in the love life category. The man I am fleeing (and feel free to see it that way, no matter how sick it sounds. It is exactly what I am doing) is moving his girlfriend here from Australia to take over my job. I am keeping *too* busy to let it bother me much. I am hoping I can not think about it for 2493 miles, LOL, when there is nothing else to think about. This is the one that I love, that doesn't love me back. I am glad I am getting out of that situation but it is so so hard, because I want to be with him.

The good news is that I have plans for Valentine's Day with a CA man. We are going to go to the ocean for sunset and then he is going to cook me dinner, and on Sunday we may go to San Francisco (depending on if we like each other, since we haven't met). Don't worry; he knows I am not emotionally available right now, and this is no more than it is. However, I am stupidly grateful to have something to do on Valentine's Day other than cry. There are going to be some hard times of missing the other man in CA. I know this to be true.

And, I want to say publically to Kaytee -- thanks for making this possible. I am so looking forward to having a chance at a new life.

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

Sooz -- also, I'm sorry to hear you are in so much physical pain right now (read that on another post somewhere on here). I hate it when that happens to you.

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

Apparently it stretches all the way across the internet and over several continents, for it is here that I feel loved and supported. I doubt I will be online much until I get to CA, so thanks to everyone for your interest, and letting me go on and on about the details, LOL, etc. I am sure it was horribly boring to many. Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

Tomorrow is a rough day in

Becki,

Been there, still doing it. Love you, love you, love you.

Linda2

I think about you SO MUCH. You don't even know. I don't know how you stand it.

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

HUGGGGGGGS Becki!!!!

Sometimes it's simply "fight or flight". I'm of the belief that flight can be very good for one's soul, hope it is for yours Becki.

Do you think you could find one or two of those internet cafes along the way so you can send us a message? :=)

Becki, STAYING and hoping for crumbs would be very sad and detrimental, leaving seems a very healthy choice to me. Sarajane

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On Wed, 28 Jan 2004 11:40:06 -0500, Sjpolyclay wrote (in message ):

You're not fleeing, anyway, which sounds like you aren't the one in control of this situation. You're making a positive choice to leave a bad situation. You're going to something wonderful and new, even though you decided not to come to Boston. (but you're welcome to come visit anytime)

I wish you all the happiness in the world, and know this will be sooooo good for you.

Kathy N-V

You're welcome... and I'm jealous that you get to move into my "new house" and not me....

My cousin is now jealous, too (the one who just "discovered" that "shooting guns is fun")-- but he and his wife have a 3-year lease agreement in Ventura, so he couldn't move there anyway (you'll probably see-- or hear-- him occasionally over near the barn). And now your soon-to-be neighbor is asking if I'm thinking of selling the place-- he's tired of living in the mobile home he's in (I guess he's renting/leasing the property-- I had thought he owned it, but...). And my aunt is getting "subtle" inquiries about what l'm going to do with it from the Hollywooder crowd.... Mostly, I'm still trying to deal with why I own it, and waiting on probate procedures, and taking care of geriatric puppies ($236 vet bill yesterday for Bud).... Kaytee "Simplexities" on

Becki, I think it is AWESOME that you're turning around and walking away from TMYLWHDLYB! I had one of those, once, (I call him TBWBMH) and I couldn't walk away. I tried a hundred times, and I just couldn't. Your strength is unbelievable, and I am in awe of you.

And, I feel your pain about leaving your godson. I hope you can have him out to visit often! It's so hard for kids to see someone they love move away, but often after a visit, they realize that distance in miles isn't enough to take you away from them after all.

-Kalera

BeckiBead wrote:

Karen -- the guy I haven't met yet (who lives in CA) said that Phoenix is only about 5 hours from me. I would rather come later, like for a weekend, than to stop on my way in. I will be a) wired on caffeine (Carol and Katielizard can tell you. This is not a pretty sight, LOL) and driving a big truck, dragging my car behind the truck. Just too awkward for words, LOL

Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

Margie -- I bought a cell phone yesterday (matching phones for me and Marquise) just for the trip. Kaytee, Carol (in Utah) and Sooz will have the number. They will have to post updates for me. Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows

THANK YOU GIRL. Leaving was the only thing that made me feel strong. Becki "In between the moon and you, the angels have a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right." -- Counting Crows