OT - Prayers and good thoughts for Jeanne

Jeanne, I am so sorry for your loss. I know it's not much comfort but Tim is in Heaven with my brother Butch and his baby angel Cammie, so he has some wonderful company. My prayers and hugs are with you at all times.

Hugs, Mika

"nzlstar*" wrote in message news: snipped-for-privacy@p6g2000pre.googlegroups.com... On Mar 24, 10:11 am, Jenn in Tacoma wrote:

tahnks, jenn. i dont mind. i did post on facebook. just did the first one i went into that day. just returned from the funeral home to see tim. took gen and sam. we stayed a while. sam put his earphones from Ipod in Tims ears to listen to Miles Davis awhile. Tim would appreciate the idocy of doing that on someone who is no longer alive. i told tim to please please come back and haunt me or whatever you call it. told him to find his older brother (who will still be a baby wherever they go) grandma, grandpa, uncle larry and bring them all back for a visit. i'd love to see them all. tim is only 21yo. too young. its not right. kids are not supposed to leave first. i made gen and sam promise without fail that they will outlive me. if anything happens to either of them i'll be fast behind them as i can not cope with anymore close deaths in my lifetime. i've had more than my share. that is two of my kids gone now. two left. enough , no more. i just want my tim to come home. i want him back. i'm a frigg'n mess right now. we now have to wait about 34 months for the coroners inquest and go thru it all again. they did a full autopsy, not sure when that will be revealed. it was to check if the meningitis he had when 14yo (over the week of 9/11) had caused any brain damage we knew nothing about. also to check whatever. i hate all that shit. sorry folks but my language is blue at the best of times. right now i'm just a blubbering mess off and on thruout the day. also now waiting to see how long dh's mum will hang on to life. she is skin/bones, on morpine and dr says in a coma of sorts so how long she'll hang on is unknown. then we'll go thru all this over again. i just keep hugging my two kids now and they are good with that. they need'em too. then we all cry all over again. nothing more. he is gone. i want him back. he is loved and will be missed heaps. nothing more from me for who knows how long. later and thanks for all the love and hugz from you lot, jeanne

There's nothing we can say that will help. Just know that our hearts are with you and wishing you did not have to go through this pain.