I know I said I was going to quit last year, but I wan't ready to give up my habit.
This morning I took my last cigarette, broke it in half and threw it away. I am wearing a Nicotrol patch and have not had a cigarette since 8:30 am. I'm chewing sugar-free gum and trying hard to keep my mind off of having a smoke.
It won't be easy. I've smoked for almost 40 years. But I can't breathe normally anymore (I'm sure the reaction to those paint fumes at my former job triggered something). Just a few steps and I'm gasping for breath.
Went out this morning and kept busy, but upon re-entering my apartment, I was staggered by the reek of smoke. Emptied all ashtrays, sprayed them with orangey cleaning spray. I'll probably have to wash all my clothes and spray the furniture with some sort of freshener.
I refuse to substitute food for cigarettes. I bought a lot of bottled water and will have a swig everytime I want a smoke. Ought to help wash the toxins out of my body. Also bought sugar-free gum.
I'm going to do it this time. I have to. I *have* to. I can't breathe. Any supportive vibes that can be sent would be greatly appreciated. Any non-smokers who have some helpful hints on overcoming the urge, please share them with me in private e-mail. ariel at gate dot net
Linda2